The evening of nine October is one of those night that, despite the fact that I may not recall the date years from now, I will never forget. It was one of those night when something you were well aware of for some time finally "hit" you. First off, it was one of my typical 24-hour runs due to two jobs. Secondly, tomorrow was going to be the same. I was already on the clock and only wanted to horizontal on the mattress.
I mentioned in a previous blog that I am quite cooked in matters of the heart. This is rather nice because it is very much mutual from what I see and hear.
Now please do not think that it took us this long to realize that we had feelings for each other. Although I am quite thick and blind in that area, I doubt I could miss this. (And Nicole K. and Halle B., I am sorry I didn't notice you throwing yourselves at me... I know I could have spared you a lot of grief in bad relationships. For that matter, you could have saved me from the few bad relationships I did have myself.)
No this one is very obvious. It is obvious to the point where there is no denial. We are in a state of mad about each other. This is SOOOOO unlike me. This never happens to me. The same, I have been informed, is true. Still here we are. And I know I have not really let you know much more than you already do. "I know."
I never did mention just how impossible this relationship is. Unfortunately, it is just as unavoidable. We are both like moths to the candle perhaps just as likely to be sucked in and burned to a cinder. We literally are from opposite sides of the planet, never planned on anything but careers and both made our selves poor as paupers to continue out education. The snowball plummets into the Jacuzzi's of Hades. It hits both of us.
So much for the proverbial two weeks of bliss, which lies, shattered amongst us. Reality has intruded and we both have to face the music. What do we do? We need to really think this one out or we are going to hurt each other. Nearly two hours of discussion and it looks bleak. We are fools and we decide to drive on. We know it is impossible. We know it is almost undo able Pray for us. Thus ends the day and it lapses into night.
I think we both slept well knowing that we were going to proceed forward and not sweat it for a while. We were still going to be realistic and we were still going to give our hearts a chance as well. Leave it to Lumpy to fall for someone literally from the other side of the planet.
Day breaks far too soon and sleep retreats far too quickly. we proceed as planned. Off to church. Guess what, I actually like this church. We enjoyed ourselves, felt a good spiritual lift and have some hope for us but even more for each of us individually. I am too tired to even write about how good it was but more will come.
The bottom line is I have met a woman I truly like and love, found a church I honestly like and life is good
